something.

I feel busy and like I'm doing lots of things but not really doing anything at all.
I hate not having direction, motivation, inspiration.
I'm happy but I'm not content.
I just need to DO something.

"By day I am tough,
I am stubborn and rough,
but by night I'm as smooth as an eggshell.
This skin has been fixed-
it's all drywall and bricks,
but inside I'm as weak as an eggshell."

Told my girl we had to break up.
Thought that she would call my bluff.
But she said, to my surprise, "Big girls don't cry."

Because I'm literate.

Books I own/have borrowed that I haven't read/finished, but would like to;

-Let the Great World Spin by Colum Mcann
-Everything is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer
-To the Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf
-Revolutionary Road by Richard Yates
-Hello Cruel World: 101 Alternatives to Suicide for Teens, Freaks and Other Outlaws by Kate Bornstein
-All the Pretty Horses by Cormac Mccarthy
-Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk


Books I own/have borrowed that I'd like to re-read;

-House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski
-Only Revolutions by Mark Z. Danielewski
(though it seems unlikely that I'll actually re-read these two since they both took me SO LONG to read the first time)
-The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
-Life of Pi by Yann Martel
-Atonement by Ian Mcewan


Books I want to read;

-The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger
-Nine Stories by JD Salinger
-The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
-The Fifty Year Sword by Mark Z. Danielewski


Books I should be reading, but am not;
-The Souls of Black Folk by W.E.B. Dubois
-On Course by Skip Downing
-Angels in America by Tony Kushner (which is a play, but whatever).

I. love. this.

I think I forgot something over the ocean and I let something blow away on the breeze.
But the place that's the farthest, well that's where my heart is,
and I'm waiting for someone to find it and send it to me.

Here we go.

answers

would be nice I guess.

But I suppose I'm just not really invested either way.

Florida?

hey, I mean, I'm not that cool and I really don't have any swagger so, uh.
come and get it if ya want it if ya know what I mean.
I don't so I sure hope you do.
Replacing you with ya has really no effect but I do it anyway.

so, uh, yeah, uh.
this is pretty much how conversation with me goes 90 percent of the time.

so, uhm, that didn't have much of a point but Spencer's in town this weekend,
so that's nice.

I had to edit this because I had typed "nice times". Which sounds completely moronic.
Although, I used to say "good times" all the time.
In fact, if you want to know some trivia about me I usually say "good times" about something when I feel a little awkward and don't really know what to say.
Also, I've become increasingly more and more quiet since I came to college. Is increasingly more and more even the correct way to word that?

I talked to one of my professors about my life choices for half an hour today while I was waiting to audition for something.
It was nice, he's a cool guy.
I guess he's one of those real, live teachers that you hear about in high school but don't actually have.
(wellokaythat'salieIhadacouple)

So, you know, hollaatchagirl.

remember remember, something that actually fucking matters.

if-i-see-one-more-v-for-vendetta-guy-fawkes-themed-status-im-going-to-kick-everyone-on-facebook-in-the-eyeballs-i-mean-the-real-story-isn't-half-as-exciting-and-doesn't-even-involve-natalie-portman-with-a-shaved-head-i-mean-comeoooonnnnnnnnnn
grumblegrumblegrumble

Why I'm a nerd.

"When dementors try to ice me, I step right up and own 'em,
I crack a butter beer and say "Expecto Patronum"."